HEIDI, FROM THE BEGINNING
THIS STORY IS DEDICATED TO MY TRUE LOVE'' FUR'' CHILD
THE YEAR 1986,, I HAD JUST MOVED INTO MY FRIENDS HOUSE. HER NAME WAS MARIA. I WAS LIVING IN A EFFICIENCY APT WHEN MARIA CAME INTO MY LIFE AND SAID MOVE IN WITH ME A THREE BEDROOM HOME IN DOWNTOWN FORT LAUDERDALE. MARIA HAD A DOG NAMED ''BUBBA'' AND A CAT.. I WANTED A DOG FOR A LONG TIME BUT LIVING IN APTS MADE THAT DIFFICULT. MARIA SAID I COULD GET A DOGGY IF I WANTED TO. SO ONE DAY READING THE SUNDAY NEWSPAPER IN THE PET SECTION I SAW AN AD ''POMERANIAN''' PUPPY $250.00 MUST SELL MOVING. I SAID WOW WHAT A GREAT DEAL. I CALLED THE NUMBER AND THEY SAID SHE WAS AVAILABLE TO SEE IF I WANTED TO COME OVER, SO I DID. I DROVE UP TO THE NICE LITTLE HOME IN MARGATE AND KNOCKED ON THE DOOR .THE DOOR OPENED AND MR. STRICKLAND WAS HOLDING THIS BEAUTIFUL ORANGE PUPPY NAMED HEIDI-HO. SHE LOOKED AT ME AND WAGGED HER TAIL AND PANTED LIKE I WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL VISION SHE HAD EVER SAW. I ASKED TO HOLD HER SO I DID. SHE LICKED ME, CUDDLED ME, AND I KNEW FROM THE MOMENT THAT DOOR OPENED THAT SHE WAS MINE. I ASKED IF SHE DID ANY TRICKS. yes, THEY SAID ,THROW THE BALL. I THREW THE BALL AND SHE RAN ,GOT THE BALL AND BROUGHT IT TO MY LAP. I SAID I'LL TAKE HER . WROTE THE CHECK AND I TOLD THEM THAT SHE WOULD HAVE THE BEST LIFE EVER. I MADE THEM THAT PROMISE.. SHE SAT ON MY LAP THE WHOLE WAY BACK TO HER NEW HOME WHERE SHE HAD A BIG YARD AND A DOG AND CAT WAITING FOR HER. SO LIFE BEGAN WITH HEIDI AND I. BOY WHAT AND EXCITING LIFE SHE HAD AT THAT HOME. WELL, A COUPLE OF YEARS WENT BY AND WE MOVED FROM THAT HOME, MARIA AND I NEEDED A BREAK SO OF COURSE FINDING A HOME WITH A DOG WAS NOT EASY. I CALLED AN AD IN THE PAPER AND TOLD THE MAN I HAD A DOG HE SAID BRING HER. WE HAVE A BIG FENCED-IN YARD AND A POOL, WHICH BY THE WAY HEIDI WAS A GREAT SWIMMER. SO HEIDI AND I LIVED IN A ONE BEDROOM TRAILER WHICH WAS FURNISHED AND VERY SMALL BUT AS LONG HEIDI AND I WERE TOGETHER THATS ALL THAT MATTERED. WELL TIME WENT ON AND TIME TO MOVE, I THINK WE WERE THERE 2 1/2 YEARS WE. MOVED TO THE BEACH THIS TIME ON THE 17TH FLOOR IN FT LAUD MAN WAS THAT A PAIN IN THE A** WALKING HER 3 TIMES A DAY, BUT WE DID, HEIDIS ORANGE HAIR WOULD FLOW SO NICELY ON THOSE BREEZY DAYS ON THE BEACH, REMEMBER AS LONG AS WE WERE TOGETHER THATS ALL THAT MATTERED, OF COURSE TIME CAME TO MOVE AGAIN KEEP IN MIND I WAS A RENTER AND GOT BORED OF THE SAME PLACE AFTER A WHILE, SO AFTER THAT THERE WERE'' 4 ''MORE MOVES WHICH BRINGS ME TO THIS DAY NOVEMBER 10. 2001 . HEIDI IS''' 15 1/2''' YEARS OLD. HER BIRTHDAY IS JANUARY 15TH. BEFORE I GO ON INTO HEIDIS HEALTH I JUST WANTED TO SAY THAT WE NOW'' OWN'' OUR HOME A BEAUTIFULTHREE BEDROOM HOME WITH A GREAT YARD. HEIDI HAS 3 CATS AND CHELSY, MY GIRLFRIENDS DOG,WHO IS A SHELTIE .HEIDIS CATS NAMES ARE VAL, NIKKI AND BABY WHO ARE MY WORLD AS WELL ''' HEIDIS SIBLINGS.'''' SHE ADORES THEM ALL.. WELL TO START OFF. FOR THE PAST YEAR HEIDI HAS NOT BEEN DOING WELL. SHE HAS POSSIBLE''' CUSHINGS DISEASE'' BUT DEFINITELY A ''HEART'' CONDITION AN ENLARGED HEART DUE TO AGE. SHE HAS RECENTLY HAD FAINTING EPISODES WHICH HURT ME SO MUCH TO SEE. I HAVE TAKEN HER TO DOC WILSON WHO IS A FINE DOCTOR. SHE HAS HAD X-RAYS AND BLOOD WORK AND AN EKG WHICH ALL CONCLUDES HEART CONDITION. MY BABY IS LEAVING ME SLOWLY AND I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. HEIDI LOVES ME SO MUCH AND I SO MUCH LOVE HER SHE LOOKS AT ME AND WITH HER CATARACT EYES AND SAYS TO ME''' MOMMA I LOVE YOU''. I REALLY DONT WANT TO PUT HER TO REST . I WOULD WANT HER TO LEAVE NATURALLY AND PEACEFULLY BUT I KNOW SHE IS JUST HANGING ON . TONIGHT HAS BEEN A ROUGH NIGHT HEIDI FAINTED 3 TIMES TODAY BUT SHE MAINLY FAINTS WHEN I COME HOME SHE GETS SO EXCITED TO SEE ME, THEN'' IT ''HAPPENS. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT KIND OF LOVE. SO YOU SEE I JUST CANT TAKE THAT AWAY . I GUESS WHEN GOD HAS THE PERFECT SPOT FOR HER IN GODS HOUSE WILL HE CALL, OR DO I MAKE THE DECISION? THIS STORY I WILL END HERE FOR NOW MY HEIDI IS STILL WITH ME THIS DATE OF 11-09-01 TILL NEXT TIME. STACY HI IM BACK ITS SUNDAY 11-11-01. HEIDI HAD BREAKFAST THIS MORNING. SHE SEEMED TO ENJOY IT. THE WHETHER IS SOOOO BEAUTIFUL OUT SHE WENT OUT SHE DID HER THING WHEN FINISHED I HAD TO PICK HER UP TO PUT IN BACK IN THE HOUSE CAUSE ITS NOT EASY FOR HER .SO I DID SHE WALKED IN THEN '' PASSED OUT''' I CRIED AS I AM DOING RIGHT NOW MY HEIDI IS NOT DOING WELL .SHE AWOKE AND I HELD HER AND SAID ''HEIDI''' TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT PLEASEEEEE BABY. I THEN SPOKE TO SOME FRIENDS ON THE PHONE THEY TOLD ME SOMETHING . THEY SAID SHE WONT LEAVE .YOU SHE WILL HANG ON UNTIL '' I ''' MAKE THE DECISION TO SAY GOODBYE. I THINK IM ALMOST THERE I SAID IF I EVER SAW HER LIFE QUALITY DIMINISH I WOULD NEED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. DAMN IT, THIS IS SO HARD..... I WISH I COULD GET A SIGNAL FROM HEIDI OR GOD TO TELL ME, STACY ITS TIME, BUT DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART I BELIEVE THAT IT IS.. I LOOK AT HER SHE BREATHES RAPIDLY WHILE SLEEPING ,SHE CANT GET EXCITED OR ELSE SHE PASSES OUT, SHE DOES NOT PLAY WITH HER SIBLINGS ANY MORE HELP ME PLEASE . IF I DECIDE TO PUT HER TO REST NOW THE QUESTION I HAVE ? SHOULD I HOLD HER DURING THE INJECTION? OR NOT? WOULD SHE WANT ME TO HOLD HER? OR WHAT? WOULD SHE WANT ME TO STAY OUT OF THE ROOM DURING THE PROCEDURE? IM GONNA STOP WRITING FOR NOW AND IM GOING SPEND SOME TIME WITH HEIDI .
HEIDI'S STORY ''THE END''
WELL TODAY IS NOVEMBER 13 TH 2001, I AM SOMEHOW CAPABLE OF WRITING THIS SAD PART TO THIS STORY. YESTERDAY NOVEMBER 12, 2001 AT 12.45PM, I SAID GOODBYE TO MY HEIDI BABY. SHE COULD NO LONGER HOLD ON .SHE TOLD BE IN HER EYES ON SUNDAY TO MAKE THE APPOINTMENT TO AT DR. WILSONS TO SAY GOODBYE. SO I DID. ALOT OF BAD THINGS HAPPENED TO HEIDI BEFORE THE 2.30PM APPT THAT I HESITATE TO GO INTO, BUT AS YOU CAN READ WE NEEDED TO TAKE CARE OF IT SOONER, SO WE DID. BEFORE I SAID GOODBYE, HEIDI AND I LOOKED AT EACH OTHER AND CRIED, CRIED, CRIED, IN OUR HEARTS, AT LEAST I DID, I TOLD HER THAT I LOVED HER MORE THAN WORDS CAN SAY AND YOU KNOW WHAT? SHE TOLD ME THE SAME. I SAW IT AND FELT IT. AFTER THEY TOOK HER FROM ME MY HEART '''BROKE'''' THEN 5 MINUTES LATER THEY CAME OUT WITH A BEAUTIFUL BLANKET WRAPPED AROUND A BEAUTIFUL ORANGE BABY GIRL WHO WAS '''AT REST''' . SHE WAS SO PEACEFUL. I WAS SO HAPPY THAT I HAD MADE THE DECISION TO SEE HER AFTERWARDS. I SPENT SOME MORE TIME WITH HER, CUDDLED HER, AND TOLD HER THAT SHE WAS MY HONEY BUNNY BABY GIRL. THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET AND ALWAYS LOVE. I THEN LEFT . NOW WE ARE TODAY ,TUESDAY I DID NOT GO TO WORK MAINLY BECAUSE I CANT STOP CRYING AND TO SPEAK TO ANYONE WOULD NOT ONLY KILL ME, BUT WOULD HURT ALL WHO I SPOKE TO. SO IM HERE NOW. TODAY I HAD HEIDIS URN ENGRAVED. ''HOW BEAUTIFUL THE WORDS CAME OUT. I WISH I COULD SHOW YOU ALL. I DO LOOK FORWARD TO HAVING HER ASHES HOME ASAP, SO I CAN BE TOTALLY AT PEACE KNOWING PART OF HER CAME BACK TO ME. WHEN I AWOKE TODAY WAS ESPECIALLY HARD, CAUSE I DID NOT HEAR HER EARLY AM BARK SAYING ''MOM''' LET ME OUT' HURRY, REMEMBER I'M AN OLD LADY AND CANT HOLD IT TO LONG''' I DID MISS THAT. THE OTHERS ARE LOOKING FOR HER AS WELL. I MISS HER WATCHING ME AS I EAT AS WELL, BUT I HAVE TO ADMIT I HAVE A BIT OF RELIEF NOW . I NO LONGER HAVE TO CHECK ON MY BABY IN THE MORNINGS TO SEE IF SHE IS BREATHING AND GOING TO BED, I DID NOT HAVE TO DO THE SAME. MY LOVE IS AT REST AND IN A WAY SO AM I I FEEL HER SPIRIT, I FEEL HER TOUCH , I SMELL HER, AND I KNOW THAT SHE IS WAITING FOR ME AT THAT SPECIAL BRIDGE. HEIDI ' I'LL SEE YOU WHEN GOD CALLS ME AND JUST REMEMBER THAT MY LOVE AND YOUR LOVE IS TOGETHER AS ONE. BE WELL MY BABY UNTIL THEN,
YOUR MOMMY XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX